I Stand Alone

The battle has raged and many were there,
bombs burst as the volleys flew through the air.
Many have fought and many fell,
so much wide spread destruction,
this truly must be hell.
Those who I thought were by my side
were actually the enemy, in a mask they hide.
They were stealthy and their ways were cunning,
they came as friends and were hard to see coming.
In the end the truth was known,
my enemies were slain and I stand alone.

Life is hard and sometimes I fall under the load,
always wandering down that dark and lonely road.
Love is gained and love is lost,
and friends will come and will go.
Some offer their support and help,
but what will be the cost?
No, I will my do best to stand on my own.
Because in reality I must rely upon myself,
in the end I stand alone.

When you see my scars and the lines in my face,
see me for who I am and put yourself in my place.
When you see the frown that I sometimes wear,
think for a few minutes as to why it's there.
I still fight with what's inside of me,
a warrior spirit is what you will see.
When life is over and they bury me below,
my epitaph will be..I stand alone!

The Wall In Your Eyes

As I gaze into your eyes
I see who you truly are
I see your soul deep inside
I see the love in your heart

In your eyes, I see the pain
Of recent love gone wrong
I see the walls built around your heart
Yes, the bricks used are very strong

But true love can break through
Bit by bit, tiny pieces start to fall
True love is the strength needed
Patience will break down the wall

In it's place will be my arms
Nothing can shake them
No one can cause you harm

Soon you will see
The sisters of fate watched
And they guided you to me

Your heart cried to me
through your eyes and tears
"Come take me away!
Calm my storm of fear!"

My eyes spoke to you silently
As I watched your tears fall
"Here I am, my love!
I will tear down that wall!"

Hall of Despair

I walk down the cold hall
People around only see pain
All they can do is watch tears fall

They cannot see the man before
They dont see how happy I used to be
Now all that is shown is tears
All that remains is pain and misery

As I walk down that dark hall
Others are feeling the pain
Like me, their tears fall
Some the same pain
Others are different

One factor is constant as you look in the rooms
They come in pain and despair
They try to heal their wounds
Society looks down on us
For all they see is the rage
They shout and scream in fear
"Lock him or her in a cage!"

They dont see how this person got here
They dont see how they used to be
It seems society doesnt care
They come to heal the mind's wounds
As they walk the hall of despair

Suicide Solution

Drowning in a sea of despair,
I wonder if there is someone that will truly care.
Will someone hear my cry? 

For if not, tonight I will die. 
All is lost, I'm beyond all hope. 
There is nothing in this life 
with which I can cope.
I'm at the point of no return, 
my will to live is gone
and my fire no longer burns.
The blackness that is now before my eyes
is where my spirit shall dwell. 
There seems to be only one way to end my hell. 
With a pull of the trigger, it can all end.
It's the only way to stop my soul from continuing to descend.
To leave this earth, and enter the light
seems to be the only way to end my plight.
I've done my best, but I could not stand. 
The pain is far to much for me. 
This is the only solution that I see. 
So now it ends with a gun in my hand. 
I can only hope that you will understand.

The Heart and The Lie

My heart is aching and feels like it's breaking.
I smile and tell you I'm doing well.
It's a lie, I'm actually going through hell.
As I walk down the street,
I smile at everyone I meet.
It seems that life is going good,
but in my heart I'm screaming.
The pain is too much to bear,
but it seems that no one is there to care.
My soul cries out for the healing touch
of the one that I love so much.
But that one is no where to be found.
So, I smile and wave to those around.
"Life is so good for him", they say.
But what they don't see is the loneliness
I live with each and every day. 
So, when you see me and I smile and say " All is okay",
don't believe the lie.
The truth is I'm dying,
And my breaking heart is why

If You Only Knew

You look at me and stare
You criticised my actions
And you even judged my hair

You know nothing about my life
Only what's before you is what you see
What I've hidden is all the strife
That went into making me

See the lines, wrinkles on my face?
Ask yourself what happened in my life
And try to see what brought me to this place

Look deep within, maybe you'll see
All the pain and tears I suffered
Understand the struggles through the years
Look at all that went into making me

I've been lied to and I've been betrayed
I've been knocked down over and over
I've loved deeply only to see my lover stray
I've even been robbed by those I called brothers

You think you know me? You don't have a clue!
There is so much more to me
If you only knew

May I Have This Last Dance?

Throughout this life
From the time I was born
I danced the dance of life
My feet swept across the floor

As a child, I danced a silly dance
I would run, play, and laugh
But then I grew older
And soon that dance had passed

As a man the dance had changed
Many times the beat was fast
Trials and tribulations wore me down
But I held strong until it had passed

I danced with my children
I watched them play and laugh
But now they have grown
And now they dance their own path

A stranger tapped me on the shoulder
Her voice was sweet and clear
I thought I knew who she was
And my heart was struck with fear

"Do not fear me, you know who I am"
I turned and saw her amazing beauty
She asked, "May I have this last dance?"

As I gazed into her eyes
She reached and took my hand
"My name you already know"
"Let's dance across the skies!"

We waltzed across the stars
As we danced toward home
I realized I had died
I no longer have to roam.