Suicide Solution

Drowning in a sea of despair,
I wonder if there is someone that will truly care.
Will someone hear my cry? 

For if not, tonight I will die. 
All is lost, I'm beyond all hope. 
There is nothing in this life 
with which I can cope.
I'm at the point of no return, 
my will to live is gone
and my fire no longer burns.
The blackness that is now before my eyes
is where my spirit shall dwell. 
There seems to be only one way to end my hell. 
With a pull of the trigger, it can all end.
It's the only way to stop my soul from continuing to descend.
To leave this earth, and enter the light
seems to be the only way to end my plight.
I've done my best, but I could not stand. 
The pain is far to much for me. 
This is the only solution that I see. 
So now it ends with a gun in my hand. 
I can only hope that you will understand.

The Heart and The Lie

My heart is aching and feels like it's breaking.
I smile and tell you I'm doing well.
It's a lie, I'm actually going through hell.
As I walk down the street,
I smile at everyone I meet.
It seems that life is going good,
but in my heart I'm screaming.
The pain is too much to bear,
but it seems that no one is there to care.
My soul cries out for the healing touch
of the one that I love so much.
But that one is no where to be found.
So, I smile and wave to those around.
"Life is so good for him", they say.
But what they don't see is the loneliness
I live with each and every day. 
So, when you see me and I smile and say " All is okay",
don't believe the lie.
The truth is I'm dying,
And my breaking heart is why